Yesterday, me and sis go collect uncle’s hse rent with mummy.
Then mummy and zhen zhen ah yi were down dere chatting about mans arhs..
chatting about after marriage and blah..
so me were listening and ‘ve think thru a lot.
I suddenly felt scared,
ie feel that the world in front of me seems so darkness and full of things dat ie’ve nv tot of it.. Yupps, ie might haf a gd bf nw..
But in the future, marriage is another new beginning again..
Mummy has been constantly reminding me not to get married so early,
becoz she herself have been thru it..
But ie feel is okies to get married early..
coz nxt tym can see your child grow up while ue are still young..
But think again,
there is also bad side,
like wad if one day, your husband dun wan ue lerh lehs.
Then no money??
I dun wanna destroy the wonderful dream of my family nxt tym,
like ie will give my child the best and blah…
I wan to fulfill my dream..
The kind of happy family that ie’ve been always yearning for..
but being wif another person for 20-30 years or even 40-50 years is not an easy task..
People will get tired of each other..
nobody neos wad might happen in the future,
things will changed,
feelings will start to faded..
Mummy always tell me to enjoy nw first, so as to see the world..
But ie dun wan, coz ie neo wad ie’ve nw is already the best ie could have nw..
A guy that ie really loves and he loves me as much as ie love him..
Even if one day, all these might ended,
but deep inside my heart,
ie always neo,
ie’ve been truly loved and cherished before..
I would be more den happy lerhs.
That’s when nothing matters that much..
All along, ie always think happiness and a happy family is wad a girl really needs..
Money, status isn’t really dat important..
But when ie really get to see those materialistic gal..
ie think is time for me to grow up..
I cant be always living in my own little world anymore.
This realistic world!!!
A new school term meaning a new start for me,
I am really gonna study lerh, ie wanna fulfill my dream,
ie wanna treasure whatever ie’ve nw..
18 years old bdae oso marks a new beginning for me..
An 18 yr old gal..
Big gal lerhs.. ((:
~min'er